Reconnecting

June 10, 2009
Dear Journal,
So I woke up this morning pissed off because last night I made a promise to myself that I had to do something today that I’ve never done before. For some reason I was stressed taking out the trash and thinking about what I can possibly do with a $20 budget. As I’m walking back in, I find a gift placed by my front door from Sam Gamez. It was a framed picture of us at my birthday party and along with it came a card that just said the sweetest thing. That’s when I knew that today was going to be a good day. Sam has always been what I consider a constant friend. Senior year in P.E. class, he punched me in the face and busted my lip. So the next day he made me an apology card that was so unnecessary, yet such a Sam thing to do. I’ve actually kept it through all of these years. Those thoughts are my all time favorite gifts. Speaking of gifts, Unie gave me and Ran trees for my birthday. So today we went out to the backyard and planted them with a knife and spoon. I almost passed out from the heat, but after seeing what we had done, I felt really good that I did something positive for the planet. So before I went in, I decided to be a good daughter and water my mom’s flowers. Then I remember why I hated watering her plants as a kid, because she has a bajillion. I made a commitment that before the week is over, I’m going to put on my gloves and get on my knees and remove all of the weeds that are ruining her beautiful flowers. I’m actually excited to get started. It’s going to be a dirty project but I think my mom would really appreciate it. After saving the planet, I decided to go the movies alone. It’s something that I’ve always wanted to try and had many excuses why not to. But after today, I’m making it a weekly ritual. I went and saw Up and because my phone was trippen out, I was really alone. I had no friend and no phone, in the theater with my popcorn, M&Ms, and 32 oz soda. So all there was to do was enjoy the movie. As I’m sitting there watching the previews, a dark scene appears with a frightening child screaming and I realized that this couldn’t possibly be the cartoon movie that I signed up for. As I’m walking out as fast as I can to prevent any nightmares, I laughed to myself because of course I would end up in the room playing Drag me to Hell. Haha. Now that’s a Sandy thing to do. But I must say Up was the best movie I’ve seen in a really long time. I smiled. I laughed. I jumped. I cried. I got on the edge of my seat like 5 times. Coming out I wanted everyone to know that PG movies are still the shit no matter how old you get. So after the movie I went and ate my mom’s home cooking which of course never lets me down. To complete my daily form of exercise, me and Ran went for a 3 mile walk at Chambers Bay. I commend anyone who can run that thing all the way through. The only reason I kept going was because there was no turning around once you get to the best part. It was a very calm and relaxed view and also a very long and painful adventure. I’ll do it again. I’ll do this whole day again. While walking with my sister and talking with her about life and my relationships and hopes and dreams like I always do. There was a moment when I noticed how dead the grass was in a certain area. I said to her, “someone needs to water the grass.” Then she said to me, “or maybe God should water the grass.” It got me thinking that maybe its okay to ask him for things. It’s not selfish if it’s something that really matters to me right? Like truly matters. Just a thought I’ll leave on.

Sandy Kang